Her Name is Nasywa

It’s been too long not to see this page dan memulainya lagi dengan menuliskan tentang kehilangan. Kehilangan paling besar sepanjang 37 tahun umur saya. Namanya Nasywa. Nasywa Sadiya Ariqah. Nama yang kami temukan hanya dalam waktu semalam, di rumah sakit. Dia yang hadir sebelum waktunya dan pergi pun begitu tiba-tiba. Hari ini umurnya sudah seratus […]

Bad Times and It’s Okay

There are times we are down. There are times God doesn’t let our desire happened. There are times our doctor has to come back to her school so we can not see her anymore for a long time. There are times to feel our tear. It is always okay to not to be okay. There […]

Topeng

Ia mencintai si dungu seperti seorang ibu kandung kepada anaknya. Si ibu yang tak memiliki anak laki-laki itu selalu sumringah atau tertawa jika mereka bersama. “Satu dungu saja mungkin tidak cukup, bu,” si anak berkata. “Aku akan jadi apapun seperti yang kau harapkan, nak,” jawab si ibu sembari tersenyum tulus. Berhari-hari, berbulan-bulan, bertahun-tahun mereka larut […]

Zen Habits

The last two years have been so amazing. I learned many good things which then slowly became my habit. Having habits that are able to change the environment and nature become better, even though sometimes it sounds so heroic but inspiring on the other hand. Less waste, food preparation, and decluttering. You name it. I […]

the sincere bell rings

This month i just feel so so tired. Sometimes, i just want to quit; sometimes, what i really want is to stop. My energy run out, and everything became wrong and frustration. Then, i found myself full of negative vibes. Home also got bad impact out of it. So where will i go? What happened […]

Menakar Kesetiaan

Untuk A Terkadang aku ingin mencumbu kesetiaan di pagi hari, kepadanya segala perih kusandarkan di tengah rintik hujan yang hanya diam kusapa. Meskipun kadangkala—seringnya—saat senja datang tepat waktu, ia meninggalkanku begitu saja. Sesulit apa menakar kekecewaan? Apakah seperih luka yang disiram air laut? Kemudian seseorang berbisik di atas dadaku berkata “Jangan bodoh mencoba-coba menakar kekecewaan, […]

Calling

“Where are you?” asked someone’s calling somewhere out there. Why everyone on the phone who is NOT really connected directly on our daily basis ALWAYS do this question? I am a disturbed kind of person. I do not need this. This is neither polite nor comfortable question to answer.

Disappear

Dear Alesha, someday, i hope you will know how to forgive trully. Forgive, as i know on my thirty two living in this world, is not an easy job to do. But, please do not make this as an excuse. I do hope to you, i really do. Or, should we, human being, pleased to […]

The Last Part of Bridezilla: Sulitnya Menjadi Lajang di Usia 31 (di Indonesia)

Akhirnya saya tidak lagi single di usia 32 tahun. Satu pertanyaan penting sejagad raya dari orang-orang tidak lagi saya rasakan. Membahagiakan? Melegakan, iya. Hari ini adalah H+19 saya berstatus sebagai istri. Tepatnya tanggal lima Mei lalu saya diserahterimakan secara agama dan negara dari Bapak ke Suami. Terlambat? Literally not, karena seperti kak Sophia Bush bilang: […]

Bridezilla (part 2)

“When you look for the right person, you always end up with the wrong one. But when you just sit by the corner and wait, he comes along and shares the corner with you.” –Unknown Author Jadi di sini ada berapa orang yang pacaran lama, mungkin sembilan tahun, apa tujuh tahun, apa lima tahun, dan […]